chi-chi. love.

twenty two. tennessee. your typical horse & wolf lover. proud bulldog owner.

If you ever begin to wonder if he is the one, ask yourself:

18. April 2014

Does his laughter warm your body from the inside out? He knows that when you say two scoops you really mean three, right? Do you dance in his living room while drinking cheap wine? I hope so, and I hope you’re both drunk and terrible and laughing so hard you cry. Does he tell you how beautiful you are, and if yes, does he say it when the morning light falls upon your face? More importantly, when he tells you, do you believe him? Can you cry in front of him? I hope you can, that means you trust him. When it’s pouring rain does he knows that if your hair is curled or your eyes are sad that means he should get the car and bring it to you? When he asks what you want for dinner and you say you aren’t hungry, does he ask if you’ve eaten today? And when you say you had breakfast, I hope he knows that you don’t eat breakfast, and makes you a bowl of rice, because that’s your favorite comfort food. Does he kiss you good morning? Goodnight? Just because? Do you know when he prefers tea to coffee? I never quite figured that out with your father, so if you have, you are a better woman than I. Have you figured out where he’s ticklish? Don’t let him convince you he’s not, I promise you he is. Have you frustrated the hell out of him yet? You will, oh you will, but it’s how you two come out of it that matters. And when he said he loved you for the very first time, did you respond by asking if he’s afraid of heights? I hope with my entire soul that he said yes because that means, despite his fear, he fell for you. Now, darling, you tell me, is he the one?

"Letter from Mother to Daughter"

Anti-Social

5. April 2014

Here lately, the only things I have been focusing on are work, school, and myself. Not saying those are bad things to focus on but… I just have no social life. I have the opportunity to go out with friends tonight, but the more I think about it, the more I just want to stay home, workout, cook, study, and cuddle with my pup. Who am I? Maybe I’ve just grown out of the partying and socializing stage. I have been able to save money lately. Mmmm. Maybe this is a good thing.